People have always been searching for the "fountain of youth". Trying to find ways to look 10, 20, 30 years younger. Women are always looking for ways to enhance their eyes, their lips and how to contour their face to look thinner.
As much as we try to take care of our outer appearance, we sometimes forget to take care of our own emotional needs. One of my emotions is being anxious over situations, events that I am responsible for. With my personality, I want everything "perfect".
I can remember the first time that I was overly anxious. That was the day that I had to stand in front of my Spanish classroom and recite by memory a story in Spanish. As I type, I can feel the sweat in my hands, my stomach doing somersaults and my breathing becoming heavy. I got in front of the classroom and I forgot everything. Tears began to gradually fall on my cheeks. It was an embarrassing moment. It is amazing that I even get in front of people and do cosmetic presentations.
When I begin to worry about a presentation or event that will happen within a few days, I have to stop and pray. Praying gives me peace and calmness. It seems impossible to not be anxious, to not worry about our families; to not worry about our jobs; to not worry about our health and to not worry about anything. My faith is what gets me through these times.
One of my favorite verses is: Philippians 4:6-7 - "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
I am learning that when this anxiety hits, I have to take time to plan out everything so that hopefully there are not any obstacles that will hinder me from doing a thorough job in whatever I am needing to do.
As I am preparing for the upcoming presentations, I am learning how to trust. I have heard that all great actresses have stage fright before they go on stage. My husband tells me that I am a frustrated actress. Anxiety comes with the territory. To me this also shows that I care about how I teach and that I want each person to walk away with knowledge and confidence of the cosmetic products.
Taking care of my outer appearance is important, but taking care of my emotions is important as well. As I prepare my presentations for the next several months, I will make sure that I pray about the presentation. I will go through my to do list and check it off. Then trust that my preparations have set the ground work for me to complete my task.
Today is a new day and a new beginning! I will overcome or as they say in the theater "break a leg"!